There are two kinds of life altering events. Those that cause trauma, and those that occur when we’re called to make BIG changes.  Call-to-action life events, I refer to them as. I’ve had many of the former, and two of the latter. The first I was living in New York and extremely successful in my career. Every other aspect of my life, however, not so much. I was overweight, a workaholic and in one dysfunctional relationship after another. I abused myself in a myriad of ways pretty much around the clock. Each morning my eyes would open to the sound of my alarm, and feeling the weight of the world in every cell of my body, I’d begin muscling through another day.  I did that for five years, right up to the day my body finally gave out. That morning, no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t lift myself from the pillow.  

For the first time, I called in sick. That began a series of weekly, sometimes daily, blood tests, bone marrow extractions, MRI’s and a slew of other procedures all in the quest to discover what was going on with me. An answer no doctor was able to uncover. Instead, with shrugged shoulders I was told time and again that, despite the fact that I couldn’t get out of bed without assistance - unless it was to use the bathroom where I would crawl along the floor, resting on the way - tests weren’t revealing anything to be wrong. Ultimately I was sent home with the prognosis that this was my new normal, and perhaps I’d like to attend the support group meetings for those with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. Somewhere deep within me I knew this wasn’t right. There had to be a reason behind everything.  My journey into alternative medicine and spiritual healing began.  

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Through yoga, acupuncture, herbal medicine, vibrational nutrition, meditation, sound healing, and other spiritual practices I healed. I came to see my life at that point had been like a speeding train headed for the brick wall I’d finally crashed into. The outer chaos of my life matched my inner world. My weight was my armor and my protection, food a means to sooth and numb. I was doing anything and everything to avoid and distract myself from the pain and trauma within, and that had depleted my body to the point of collapse.

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I was so passionate about everything I was doing and learning, and knew I wanted to share that with others. I enrolled in a two year yoga teacher training program with yogiraj Alan Finger. I explored acting and the arts, letting my heart be my guide. I fell in love, got married and created a fabulous new life with my husband and young step children; I thought I was set.

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Right up until the day life fell apart. Deception and betrayal in my marriage brought my world, and me, crashing down. I leaned heavily into my pain, using all the tools I’d acquired over the years, and went searching for more.  I needed to understand what had happened, what I had missed. I immersed myself in the study of metaphysics, New Thought principles and Spiritual Law, leading me to complete a four year program and become a licensed spiritual practitioner through Centers for Spiritual Living. My relationship to my now ex-husband became one of my biggest paths to spiritual growth. I transformed my beliefs around worthiness and love, developed trust in the Universe and myself, found my voice, and reclaimed my power.  My breakdown transitioned to my breakthrough.

 

Are you ready for a  breakthrough?